I am working on a short piece that’s due to be posted in an internet forum to my classmates in precisely 15 minutes. None of them are people I know, really.
The piece is about being a domestic violence survivor. It’s autobiographical, but my classmates won’t necessarily know that. But that is not what I wanted to focus on in this post, actually.
What I am wanting to note is that I just took out a segment that talks about consensual sex (consensual cocksucking, specifically). And that is because it feels… intimate. Like a kind of private disclosure, whereas the other stuff doesn’t feel like as much of a reveal.
I think this is funny because if someone, like, did a statistical analysis of my published work I’m sure that cocksucking would come up ALL THE TIME, you know? I am not shy about sex, and I am particularly un-shy about blowjobs.
But for some reason, those lines felt like too intimate a detail about my particular kinks & likes to reveal. Like, on top of everything else that is being revealed in this piece I am turning in, writing about how I have sex to this group of strangers is way too vulnerable.
Even though they don’t necessarily know that it is me. Even though I am writing about it here, to the whole wide internet, right now.
Anyway. Writers & artists who work with autobiography/memoir: Do certain things feel like “too much information” for you? Not as in “Eeew TMI,” but as in “No, I am not ready to share that with those people yet”? Are you okay sharing with some people or in some forums, but not in others? I am curious.