Today I am doing some freelance work through a fibro & chronic fatigue flare, wheeeee! This is on my Top 10 Least Favorite Things List, but sometimes that is life. >.<
I’m on Day… 15? Or so? Of the flare? I think? I have kind of lost count, honestly? But both my pain & my exhaustion have been consistently Very Bad the past few weeks. Like, I woke up at 7:30 this morning, but I was literally not actually physically able to get out of my bed until noon. It’s been that kind of month.
That said: This grant has to get to the post office today, my otherwise unemployed ass sure as hell needs the money, and if I was so bad off that I really couldn’t do it, I wouldn’t, money & sense of duty/responsibility be damned. I am actually okay enough to work for a few hours and then be done. (And this will only take a few hours. As far as grant applications go, it’s an easy one, and I did a bunch of prep work on it last week so I wouldn’t end up fucked the day of the deadline.) I’m just really wishing I could have a Chronic Illness Fuck It Day and rest.
Any way, the reason I am even writing this at all:
HEY! Other folks with chronic pain/fatigue &/or illness: Do you have things you do to be nice to yourself when you have to push through An Important Task but you’re hurty/flarey/fatigue-y/whatever? Things you do before, during, after, to make The Task easier, less painful, less stressful, perhaps even fun — or, at the very least — neutral?
I have worked pretty hard to break my old habit of GO! GO! GO! and then COLLAPSE, and I have also worked pretty hard at, well, not working when I really absolutely can’t. But this feels like a slightly different skill set, and like building a new muscle, in a way.