Anyway, while we’re all eagerly awaiting the next page of The Exile & Happy Landing Of Natalie Ríos, here’s a one-page autobiographical bit of silliness I did a couple years back as a hypothetical submission to that second issue of Fucking Trans Women that seems to have never happened.
So if you were dying to know what words to use when you get me into bed, ta da! Now you don’t even need to ask. (See how easy I make it to have hot sex with me?)
Um, and if you were wondering why Christianne’s drawing Exile and not me, I guess now you don’t need to ask that either. :P
“IT’S NOT ROCKET SCIENCE!”
Oh, sweet friend. I love you so.
I haven’t been disingenuous in what I’ve said describing my perception of “truth” and “reality.” Certainly, I understand what is generally meant to be the “truth,” I understand this notion, but it’s not something I trust in, OK?
The only answer that feels true (I said feels, not is) is that yes, the character Minnie is me, but she is not me. She is a projection of some tumult which originates within me, but she is not me. I use elements of myself, including my likeness, for the character, perhaps as Cindy Sherman uses herself in her work, but like Sherman’s photographs, the work itself is not any more about the creator than it is about everyone. I won’t deny that Minnie does things I have done, and that things happen to her that have happened to me, but she, unlike me, having been created, is who she is and will remain so, unchanged now. I make no attempt to create “documentary.” There is a process of dissociation that takes place when I make a story, I make creative decisions in a fugue state that I could hardly describe to you, but the end result is, I hope, a story with some meaning or resonance, something created, with a beginning, a middle and an end, an encapsulation of feeling and impression, but in no way a documentary of anything other than an “emotional truth.”
If I told most interviewers that my work is “true” and that it is based on real events that occurred in my life, they would more readily accept this than they do the explanation I try to give. Sadly, what they would believe feels to me like a lie and a simplification of a process that is for me as complex and vague as life itself …
”This is really smart & spot-on. Worth a read.
From Lynda Barry’s blog. I love this. True story: I found Barry’s work in the Y/A section of the Ingleside Library when I was 10 because a librarian thought it was for children, because it was comics. Finding her work at that age was actually one of the best things that has ever happened to me. Her work was major solace for me as a kid. When I re-read it as an adult, everything had new layers & perspective, and I fell in love all over again.
WELL
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