things that are very good right now

  • Still Here. Guys, I cannot say enough good things about this show. I feel so touched & honored to be a part of it, and so inspired by the brave work people are doing.

  • Relatedly: I don’t think it is ANY coincidence that this show is almost entirely queer folks who grew up poor &/or working-class in San Francisco, majority children or grand-children of immigrants, and majority people of color. This is the San Francisco I grew up in, the San Francisco I love, the San Francisco that I miss more & more as the landscape of the city changes for the worst (and I hold on to my shoebox of a rent-controlled apartment for dear life). I have said this before, and I will say it again: I am really fucking allergic to the Queer Bay Area Transplants who are basically White Upper-Class Slumming Hipster Boizzz Sporting Trucker Caps (‘cause, you know, all my cousins & uncles are actual fucking truckers?). This is why I don’t go to 90% of queer events, and also why I don’t really go to queer dance parties (even though I love dancing) or queer bars. I am super-bitter about class stuff in what passes for Queer Community in SF (also, bitter about femmephobia & fatphobia — which certainly feel related, but are their own other topics). ANYWAY, point being: It is downright healing to be connecting with other folks who grew up here, who are still here, who share my complicated love for this place. I have needed this community of folks so much more than I ever realized.

  • Also relatedly: I love curating Girl Talk. To put it in pervert terms, I love being a Show Top. But there really is something to be said for Show Bottoming. Like, just, I show up, I do my part, and wow, I don’t have to worry about every little thing ‘cause I Am Not In Charge! It is a really nice break for me to just perform, as I am usually both producing and performing in things.

  • Sweet, hot, smart boys being bold with me.

  • Sunbelt sunshine.

  • Meow’s upcoming birthday shenanigans. (I have such a good present planned.)

  • Ivy being in town soon!!!

  • Friend-family (and esp. the friend-family who came out to Still Here last night).

  • Singing! Onstage! This is a thing! That I can apparently do!

  • Girl Talk is in 2 weeks & I actually don’t feel pre-show crazed. I just feel excited. :)

  • I could go on, but I need to go Get Pretty for tonight’s show.