September 2012
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the thing i keep forgetting
The thing I keep forgetting about grief is that it moves, that it comes & goes in waves. That I can be having a fine day, even having a lovely day, and then BAM, I get punched in the gut by my emotions, suddenly overwrought & off-kilter & hyper fucking sensitive when five minutes before I’d been okay.
Yesterday, I took the 8X into North Beach after lunch with a friend who works...
August 2012
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guinea guinea wop wop
So I’m sitting at Caffe Trieste in North Beach next to two old men playing chess, sipping a Caffe Fantasia & writing, and “That’s Amore” comes on the jukebox. Holy Mother of God, how many Italian stereotypes can we cram into one moment? (Also, I am waiting for Lawrence Ferlinghetti to walk in with an entourage. Magically, this happens most times I’m at Trieste. It...
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Asking for Help | (Please oh please signal-boost... →
Hey folks. I’ve got NINETEEN days left to raise funds on Indie-Go-Go to get all my medical & dental debt paid off.
The love & support I’ve gotten over the past 6 weeks has been nothing short of amazing. And now, I’m in the very final push.
Thus far, I’ve received $4000 on Indie-Go-Go and $620 in personal checks from folks. That means I’ve got $4,620 of the...
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“D: I’ve been told all my life that I’m “too sensitive,” as if you could just...”
– From “The Suicide of a Guy Who Once Built an Elaborate Shrine Over a Mouse Hole,” Close to the Knives, p. 197 (via nemesissy)
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the interior of sight: Depressive Nightmare... →
nemesissy:
Depressive Nightmare Succubus Girls/Incubus Boys don’t need role models like Amanda Palmer.
I feel like Amanda Palmer is in some ways worse than Courtney Love, who is also a pretty toxic person who is just adored by people in a way that isn’t as complicated as it perhaps should be. CL is totally…
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“But still. Still. Bless me anyway. I want more life. I can’t help myself. I do....”
– Prior Walter in Angels in America
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fone woze :/
Public Service Announcement: The screen to my cell phone has gone permanently charcoal grey (anyone know why this might happen? the battery seems fine, fwiw). I can receive calls & make calls (with some difficulty); getting/sending texts is excruciating & full of eye-strain.
Anyway, please adjust yr expectations accordingly till I get this sorted out. <3
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Incurable Hippie: Disability and Sexuality... →
takebacksexuality:
I have been doing some research on sex and disability, and thought I would share some of the links I have found. This will be useful for me in the future as a resource, and hopefully to others too.
Disability and Sex General Links
Disability Dharma: What Including & Learning From Disability Can Teach (Everyone) About Sex
How to Meet, Date and Have Sex When You’re...
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Yaaay Alemany Farmers' Market! :)
The Alemany Farmers’ Market is wonderful, AND ALSO: 1) They accept food stamps/EBT cards! 2) They give you $5 worth of tokens to use at the Farmers’ Market if you spend $10 with your EBT card. There is a tiny office building amidst all the farmers’ stands. You go to that office, show them your EBT card, and then they give you however many tokens you want to spend at the...
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“Each of us wants to hear someone shouting back as we scream into the abyss.”
– Bill Brent, R.I.P.
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a bell and a pomegranate: atriptothemorg:... →
This is a really important conversation.
atriptothemorg:
witchsistah:
talldarkbishoujo:
threedifferentways:
My observations and experiences as a Pagan Woman of Color:
On finding out I’m of black descent, people keep asking me who my Met Tet is. Who my Head Orisha is. Which Lwa am I bound to. And then saying “Why…
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thank you, bill. rest in peace.
I am so deeply saddened to hear about Bill Brent’s death. Bill was a fundamental cornerstone of queer & pervert sex & arts culture in the Bay Area. He was directly responsible for creating nearly all of the cultural, sexual, & arts spaces where I found my young self as I was coming into both writers’ community & pervert community in my early twenties. From amazing...
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a gender & pronouns note
So, as many of you reading here know, I’m genderqueer (and also femme), and I’ve become more out & vocal about that in recent years. (If you are a friend who somehow did not know about this and you’ve got questions for me, I’m totally happy to chat with you about it! But let’s please talk one-on-one, as opposed to in a public internet space like tumblr or facebook...
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“You gave everything around me a sweet glimmer, made the smallest things huge,...”
– from “The Best Thing.”
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My friend Nomy's live keynote speech at The Femme... →
I’m raising both my fists in the air as I sit here in my bed watching the livestream. <3
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“These days, these months after you’ve left, you seep into my dream life like...”
– From the new piece (tentatively titled “The Best Thing”).
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I FEEL FUCKING AMAZING, you guys!
I just sent what is probably one of the best stories I have ever written in my life to an editor. I FEEL FUCKING AMAZING, you guys!
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Morning in Portland is watching Fluffy & Amira chase each other around their apartment in their underwear*, while I pour myself a cup of coffee & serenade them with “Roommate loooove, love between rooooomates, do what you want me to do…” to the tune of “Private Dancer.” Awww, Portland, I sure will miss you.
(And by Portland, I mean Fluffy & Amira’s...
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well, at least i'm in seattle? yeah. yeah!
Well, that was a morning of getting my hopes up & then dashed. Ah well. (Got offered last-minute Femme Conference travel financial aid — YAY! — but it was not even close to enough money to actually cover a ticket to Baltimore from the west coast. Rats. Hopefully that money will help someone else get to Femme Conference, though, and my loss is another awesome femme’s gain!)
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Would You Do Anything (Dangerous) To Make Sure... →
Oh, this is horrifying. Thank you, Debbie, for reporting on this.
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Watching a meteor shower while eating a Cupcake Royale salted caramel cupcake after a lovely Seattle day, while still riding high from writing 4,000 new words = Winning At Life!
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“We ended up in the house I grew up in, the house my parents still live in, but...”
– from something new.
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Beloved Community... (Asking for Help) -- re-post →
Folks, I’ve got another $4,455 to raise, and another 39 days to do so on Indie-Go-Go. The outpouring of love & support (both emotional & financial) has meant the world to me. Please keep it up & keep the signal boosts & donations coming!
And thank you, thank you, THANK YOU for all you have already done.
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writing question
When you hear the phrase “holy fool,” what connotations does it bring up for you?
(I’m using it in this piece that I’m working on, and oh, I am so in love with how it works in the piece right now, but I also worry that the idea of a “holy fool” is just too culturally & religiously loaded to really work in the rest of my story. Mulling.)
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relief!
God, my body is doing so much better today. One thing that living with chronic pain has taught me is how to really appreciate and never take for granted the days where I’m in less pain. It feels beyond awesome to be up & moving today!
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fibromygawdthissucks
Really really really really bad pain flare is on Day 3, now, and is severely impacting my shoulders/arms/wrists/hands. :( Taking an internet break till I feel better. (Also, Christ, WHY COULDN’T THIS HAVE HAPPENED WHEN I HAD WRITER’S BLOCK? I actually WANT to be writing right now, dammit!!!)
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a bell and a pomegranate: STOP SCROLLING FOR A... →
Oh no. Donate if you can, please! I’m thinking of all my friends with family in The Philippines. My heart and prayers are with you and yours, loves.
akoaykayumanggi:
notkorra:
EVERYONE JUST STOP FOR A FUCKING SECOND AND FUCKING LISTEN TO ME.
METRO MANILA, PHILIPPINES IS IN DANGER. MY CITY IS HALF-WAY SUBMERGED IN WATER. WE’RE PRACTICALLY FUCKING ATLANTIS RIGHT NOW. FOR MORE THAN...
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FIBROMYGAWDOWWWWW
Hey, other people with fibromyalgia: Does humidity (even if the weather is very hot) ever make your pain markedly worse? I am having the most stupid fucking pain spike ever, sort of out of the blue (my pain has been pretty low-level recently). I didn’t sleep too well last night, so that might well be part of it. But it has also been very, very, very humid & hot in Tacoma today.
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An Open Letter to Dan Savage →
So, it is my personal opinion that Dan Savage is the kind of Energy Vampiric Provocateur who feeds off of outrage & bad attention. He is like the Gay Bart Simpson Of Sex Columnists, I swear to god. My own strategy for dealing with people like him is just to NOT pay attention or engage, because attention is so clearly what he WANTS. He loooves people getting outraged about how he is upfucked....
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well then.
I’ve got a story in me that I’ve needed to write but haven’t quite been ready to, about sex & love & sweet secret tender places & the magic in the everyday. It isn’t gonna fit into The Record. And while I’ve been writing this week, I’ve been a little blocked around The Record, because this other story has been what’s on my mind. And now, a...
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Saturday is Slothday!
Wolf left for Alaska very early this morning, so I’ve got his lovely house to myself till I head to Seattle on August 10th. I’ve really loved being around so many wonderful people on this trip. But it is also nice to get an alone day to recharge. I’m no introvert, but I live alone, and I’m used to it. I sort of forgot how much I am a creature who needs a lot of alone time,...
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Doing Your Dirty Work: A Sampler of Contemporary... →
BAY AREA FOXXXY FOLXXX! Tonight, please go support the hard & dirty curatorial work of one of my favorite people in the world — Dorian Katz, Girl Talk 2009 alum & the genius twisted angelic pervert behind The Hyena Report, The Panty Chain Letter, Popper’s Shopper, The Animal Sex Coloring Book, & so many other of my favorite art pieces ever. Dorian is doing something truly...
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Support Group for Queer Partners of Childhood...
I’m passing this along for a friend — please contact queerpartnersofsurvivors@gmail.com if you want more information!
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Dear Friends, We are coming together to create a free support group for queer identified partners of survivors of childhood/youth sexual abuse. Our goal is to create a safe space for us to share and explore our own feelings, personal concerns and...
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"50 Shades of Glitter: On Self-Examination and... →
Yeah. So. I really fucking needed to read this today.
Also, regarding this line: “It’s far more socially acceptable in most circles to go after a masculine of center person or a genderqueer person than a Femme…”
My sense here is that Bevin is talking about spaces & social circles that are predominantly queer women, or at least, spaces that have roots in dyke community (B., please correct me...
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dispatches from tacoma
So, I’m staying in Tacoma with my friend Wolf for the next week & change. It has been lovely thus far. Tacoma is small & sweet & interesting & sunny, and also really diverse (esp. along race & class lines) in a way I was not at all expecting from a smaller Pacific Northwest city. That’s what I get for making assumptions, I guess!
Anyway. I wore my “Fresh...
